The Thin Border Between Me and the World

I finally understand. All the disparate pieces have come together and I understand the why and the how. For so long I've felt like a shapeless thing that moves through the world with wonder but which with every step is pushed around and assaulted, with imprints of something akin to shape left where the environment … Continue reading The Thin Border Between Me and the World

Autism and Self-Injury

I want to talk about autistic self-injury and some of the insights I've had recently, as someone who is both autistic and has self-injured and self-harmed at different points in my life. Autistic people are at a higher risk for self-injury because we need more self-regulation and more self-stimulation. We struggle with filtering and processing … Continue reading Autism and Self-Injury

Living With Auditory Processing Difficulties

One of the first words I've ever spoken was a misheard word. In Croatian, the word for calling cats to you is "mac" (pronounced like mats). We often repeat this a few times when trying to call a cat over. I had learned this word as a baby, but misheard it as "dac" instead. And … Continue reading Living With Auditory Processing Difficulties

Story-time About Proprioception and Why I Sleep With a Plushie

I'm gonna say it right away. The reason I need to sleep holding a plushie is not just because it's nice, it's to prevent injury to my wrists. You might wonder, "how could a plushie possibly help with that, and also how would you even injure your wrists in your sleep?" I'm gonna explain all … Continue reading Story-time About Proprioception and Why I Sleep With a Plushie

How My ADHD and Autism Negatively Affect My Art

I didn't give it much thought until a few months ago. I'd always thought that "this is just how I am, I always struggle." I'd somehow accepted the fact that struggling is my default. It was only after learning more about how my brain works and why, that I realized that my approach to art … Continue reading How My ADHD and Autism Negatively Affect My Art

Growing Up With Unrecognised ADHD and Autism

Living with an undiagnosed and untreated disorder or condition can be incredibly traumatising. You spend most of your life feeling like there is something wrong with you, like you're somehow failing at life. You can see that you're struggling incredibly with the most basic things while everyone else seems to be able to do them … Continue reading Growing Up With Unrecognised ADHD and Autism